After the episode where Sam was talking about his longings I knew I was in a bit too deep for comfort. At that point we hardly knew each other and he was not even considering me as an option! I still believed that I would always be single and trusted God to help me engage in this friendship wisely. Until this point I had avoided friendships with single guys because it seemed always to lead to trouble. But when you are thrown into circumstances such as we faced, there was so much to talk about and process and I trusted that God was in control of the friendship that was now growing. As we talked and our friendship grew, we began to discuss our ideals for marriage.
So here we were in the relationship - enjoying each other's presence and friendship but having established that at least for his part, he was not interested in pursuing anything more. It put me in a bit of an awkward predicament. I had developed strong convictions about having friendships with guys. I didn't want to be entangled and I didn't want to risk. Call me a coward (okay, I'll call myself a coward). But we were somewhat alone in a sort of new environment with traumatic experiences fresh in our memories and no close person to talk to. I think God created this situation to put us together, because otherwise, there would be no Caleb, Priscilla, Timothy, Andrew and...? (to be announced come September).